Sunday afternoon at Casa Guzman. Ed is working, so it's just me and the kiddos….
Asher: Mom, I have to give you the Mother's Day present I made at school for you.
Asher: It's in my backpack. Where did you put my backpack? (Looking frantically) Help me find my backpack!
We look for the backpack and I find it….in the closet where it typically lives on non-school days.
Asher: (Dumping all the contents of his backpack on the floor of my living room). Huh? I can't find it! It should be in here! Did you throw it away?
Me: No. Why would I do that?
We look through the backpack and it isn't there.
Me: Did you put it in your coat pocket?
Asher: Maybe. Mom, where is my coat? Where did you put it? Did I leave it at school? (He dumps all of the coats out of the closet and onto the floor trying to find his….)
Meanwhile, Noe has used my distraction to put a barstool on top of the couch and is attempting to climb up on top of it and sit…..
We did a have a lovely evening walk around the neighborhood together. The weather was warm and inviting. My intention was to just walk a few blocks before dinner, but we ended up outside until after bedtime and then ate a quick, late dinner.
I never wanted kids growing up. Sometime after college, but before I met Ed, I warmed up to the idea. Then we vacillated between being a family of four or a family of six. Autism made that decision for us, and four feels perfect. I strive to be a better person for these two - I don't want my actions or behavior to ever disappoint them.